30 December 2010

The Year of Rebuilding Relationships!

“Every wise woman buildeth her house: 
but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands.”
Prov. 14:1
I’m at a dead end in the relationship with one of my children.  We are sooooo the same, but also sooooo different.  
And as I’m mourning the loss of a close relationship, I’m crying out to my God!  My God who knows me better than I know myself.  My God who made me, and also made my child.  My God who loves me just as I am - unconditionally, and who also loves my child unconditionally.  My God who gave me weak points with a reason, who also gave my child weak points with a reason.  
My God who gave me a hope, a future, a purpose in life, also to my child a hope, future and purpose!
And as I pondered this, I realized I’m a foolish woman.  I’m breaking down my home with my own hands!  
Oh, Lord please forgive me, I want to be a wise woman, a woman who builds her home!  I’m daily sacrificing time to be a wise woman, I cannot allow the enemy of mine and my children's’ souls to tempt me into breaking down the relationships in my home!
And while we are at the dawn of 2011, I will give a name to this year.  
I will name this year Rebuilding!  
Rebuilding Relationships!
I’m so much a goal oriented person and often put goals before relationships.  This year I will make relationships my goal.

When I picture relationships, I’m seeing a blanket.  For me a strong relationship is like an oversized big, warm blanket.  With an oversized big, warm blanket around my shoulders, I’m able to survive the storms of life, but when there are holes in my blanket due to damaged relationships, I will not survive.  The wind will blow through the holes and I will not be able to keep the blanket in one piece. 
What kind of blanket am I for my children, for my husband?
Am I an oversized big, warm blanket who protect my love ones against the storms of life.  Do I repair the holes in my blanket formed by our sinful nature, unrealistic expectations and selfishness, immediately?  Or do I allow the storms of life to enlarge the holes until eventually it is beyond repair?
Over the past year I’ve allowed my blanket to be ripped to pieces...  but I will not be in despair.  

This year I will, by the grace of God repair my blanket and at the end God will make it new!

I will print out the name of 2011 and put it everywhere in my home, for me to see, to ponder on, to overcome!
I’m going to be a wise woman - who builds her home through rebuilding the relationships in her home!
Some days I will fail, but I will not be a failure, because I’m able to do anything, through God who give me strength!  Every new day I will start again, and by God’s grace I will rebuild my relationship with my child!
But I know for this to happen I need to firstly rebuild my relationship with God.  Oh, how I long to rebuild my relationship with God.  Just be with my God, like Mary. Stop trying to impress God, stop being Martha.  So I will start with rebuilding my relationship with God, and then the other relationships will follow.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”
Matt 6:33
Dear God please guide me this year in rebuilding my relationships.  
Please, make me strong to stay away from the temptation to rush for the goal and missed out on the relationship, even damaging the relationship.
Please make me an overcomer in rebuilding relationships!

In Jesus Name

I wrote this posting after I’ve been challenged at A Holy Experience to name the year, the same day I thought I’ve lost all hope in repairing the relationship with my child.
You can read more about name the year here.
With love



Sonja said...

Linnie,mag jy n pragtige geseende jaar he en mag verhoudings om jou herstel soos jy bid. Ek het hier op die laaste week van die jaar die wonderlikste ondervinding gehad toe die Here my gebede beantwoord het ver bo wat ek kon bid of dink omdat ek stil geraak het voor HOm en Hom toegelaat het om die herstel werk in my verhouding met my ouers te doen wat ek nie kon nie. Ek is ewing dankbaar!

Mignon said...

Ai Linnie jy het my nou amper in trane. Ek is ook van nature 'n Martha. Dankie dat jy jou hart deel en al jou sussies inspireeer om te beter en hoër!

Craig said...

Hi, I found you from Ann’s.

Rebuilding Relationships – tremendous timing for you – a truly honorable quest. And your blanket analogy – perfect. And your knowing that the relationship with God must come first and the rest follows – that is wisdom.

I’d like to let you know that I have prayed today for your year of “rebuilding” to be one where you do what you can to fix the blanket – and God help as well.

My word was “connecting” – look, I’m doing it :)

May God richly bless you, and keep you and make His face to shine upon you and give you peace.

Trudie said...

Oh Linnie, I know how you are feeling and what you are going through. I've just had the same experience with a loved one. Thank you for your honest post, this has helped me so much. Thank you for being such a blessing in my life, I know we have never met before, but you truly are such a blessing!

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