03 January 2011

A Blogger's Prayer

Over the past few months blogging became a liability.  The joy and satisfaction I’ve experienced in the beginning was gone!  There were a few reasons for this:
I’m an Afrikaans speaking girl from the Free State and somewhere during my Secondary school years something went wrong with my understanding of the English grammar.  It got all mixed up and speaking or writing in correct English is almost impossible for me.  Thanks to my dear husband, I’m able to publish blog postings in understandable English, but it takes a lot of effort from me, as well as time on  Christo’s part.
Since English is my second language, I don’t always have the extended vocabulary to express my thoughts in a creative way.  As a result I get frustrated when I try to put down my thoughts on paper (uhh, on the computer!)
I’ve fell for a lie that comments and followers indicate the value of my blog.  Since I don’t often receive comments and I’ve even lost some followers over the past month, I wasn’t sure if my blog was even being read any more,  and therefore of any value to anyone.  
So I lost my passion to write, but deep inside of me I have this pull to share my testimony of God’s blessings, grace, providence and love for our family, while we try to live in total obedience to Him alone.  A family who is doing everything opposite to the world and the mainstream church in terms of raising our children, how we worship, health, etc.
In the process of loosing my passion, I’ve become like someone who has lost something very, very valuable, but as hard as I tried to get back in writing, I just couldn’t wrap up a posting.  
A few weeks ago I read a posting Blogging by Numbers.  It immediately grabed my attention, then I hoped over to @ A Holy Experience and read an incredible piece by Ann Voskamp called, Six Things Every Christian Blogger Needs To Know, the final posting of three postings on “Upside Down Blogging”. Part 1 - Why Blog? and Part 2 - What is Success? The more I read it, the more it felt like someone was unlocking the prison I was locked in during the past few months.  A prison in which I’ve locked up myself, through the lies I believed and expectations I had.
I’ve started my blog almost 2 years ago because I’ve sensed God wants me to share truths, testimonies and a personal journal of my blessed life, but also struggles and rejections as a mother of many children. For me, keeping a blog had nothing to do with my ability to write, being creative with words, the applause of people or how many people follow my blog!  It was all about God’s glory and to strengthen my faith!
Ann’s article brought me back to basics - the core of why I started my blog.  
The Word says: “The truth will set you free!”

The Lord truly sat me free!

Since that day, I could start writing again!  Christo still need to check my grammar, I still struggle to have all the creative words and search for the right vocabulary, but I enjoy writing again! 

And most of all I got convinced of God as my ONLY FOLLOWER and therefore don’t need to follow my Follower’s statistics anymore. 

I also know God’s comments are the only comments that truly matters and rejoice in fine-tuning my spirit to hear His voice and opinion on whatever I intended to blog about!
Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate every comment, but it isn’t the focus of my blogging!
And as I’m starting this new year I want to share with you a Bloggers Prayer by Ann Voskamp:

I am no longer my own blogger, but Thine, O Lord. 
Refine me with each post how You will, rank me how You will. 
Put me to service, or put me to suffering. 
Let me post for Thee or be put aside for Thee, 
Lifted high, only for Thee, or brought low, all for Thee. 
Do with me and each post whatever you will, because You alone know best. 
Let me not strive but submit Let me not compete but care 
Let me not desire hits but holiness 
Let me be a follower, instead of seeking followers. 
Let my blog be full of Thee, and let it be empty of me. 
Let me crave all things of Thee, let me care nothing of this world. 
Let my words be worthy of the greatest of audiences: You. 
And You are enough. 
May I write not for subscribers… but only for Thy smile. 
May my daily affirmation be in the surety of my atonement, 
not the size of my audience. 
May my identity be in the innumerable graces of Christ, 
never, God forbid, the numbers of my comments. 
May the only words that matter in my life not be the ones I write on a screen ---
but the ones I live with my skin. 
I freely and heartily yield every sentence, every title, every post, every comment… or no comments… all to Thine pleasure and perfect will. 
My only fame is that I bear Your name 
My only glory is the gift of Your Grace 
My only readership, Your eyes that seek to and fro to find a heart hard after You. 
Make this so, oh Lord… 
Yahweh, You alone are my God, not Google 
Jesus, You alone are my Savior, not site meters 
And Holy Spirit, You alone are my Comforter, not comments 
So be it, today, yesterday, and every post to come. 
This is my prayer I have made on earth and over this keyboard… let it be ratified in heaven. 
Copyright 2010, Ann Voskamp @ www.aholyexperience.com   All rights reserved. Please do not copy, paste text or reprint.

You can read her whole article here.
May you all have a blessed, spirit filled 2011 and to all my Blog Friends, may this prayer also be your prayer.
With love


Anonymous said...

Hello Linnie,
I'm not a fellow blogger that you can see. But I faithfully check into your blogs. You have blessed, encouraged and strengthened me many times. I will be excited to read what you blog in the future. We are a family longing to follow God's way and not the worlds ways. May God bless your efforts.
Carolyn Rissler

AutumnVine said...

Linnie, baie dankie vir jou blog. Dit is baie bemoedigend en het vele onderwerpe van belang. Baie is so waar vir my dat ek weet dit kom van God af as bemoediging vir ons ander. Die taal bly maar 'n probleem, en soms dink ek om na engels oor te slaan maar al daai tenses.
En die bemoediging om net te weet as ma dat ek nie alleen is met kinders groot maak vir God en al die gesukkel.

Anonymous said...

Liewe Linnie, hierdie blog is 'n wonderlike inspirasie vir my en ek is die Here so dankbaar vir jou en jou tyd en moeite wat jy insit. Soos die kindertjies en omstandighede my toelaat kom loer ek graag daagliks hier. Ek geniet al die raad,lag lekker saam en bid vir julle met moeiliker uitdagings. Februarie gaan ons Brenton on sea . . . jou artikel oor vakansie met 'n groot gesin het vir my en my man baie beteken en ons is baie opgewonde! Ons broodmasjien en koffiemasjien gaan ook saam!! Mag ons hemelse Vader jou en jou gesin ryklik seen en bewaar! Liefde Johannie

Sonja said...

Dit is n pragtige gebed! En so waar wat jy hier skryf! Ons is besig om n getuie vir God te wees deur ons blogs. Die beste is ook dat ons mekaar kan bemoedig! Dankie vir jou!

nelba said...

Linnie, baie dankie vir jou blog. Ek weet ek lewer min kommentaar, maar dis maar net omdat ek nie voel dat ek regtig iets kan byvoeg by wat jy skryf nie. Ek is self Afrikaans en het al in Engels geblog en ek verstaan heeltemaal wat jy bedoel: Die fyner nuanses van wat mens wil sê gaan soms verlore. Maar weet dat die Here dit so bewerkstellig dat dit wat jy wil oordra helder en duidelik by jou lesers uitkom. Terloops, jou Engels is baie goed - ek was toe ek met jou kontak gemaak het die eerste keer vas onder die indruk dat jy Engelssprekend is, hoor! Ek geniet jou blog omdat julle lewensfilosofie so baie met myne ooreenstem.

Love and Lollipops said...

Hi there Linnie!

(We have some mutual friends, Joyful Mama and Trudie from Fun with Little Mouse, and I also live close by :)).

I have not popped in here for awhile, but am so glad I did tonight. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on blogging and the prayer...it is something that has been on my mind a lot lately!!

Take care,

Sherrin said...

I find it helpful to pray everytime I wish for more comments or visitors . . . Lord, help me to be content with my blog! I realised that it was really discontentment that made me worried about how many people were visiting. I can trust that God will bring the visitors who will truly be blessed.

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