On Friday morning we went for an ultra sound scan, during which we couldn’t see a heart beat on our 12 week unborn baby. This was such an unexpected shock and so painful for our whole family - we were all looking forward so much, to welcome this baby in our midst.
We decided to wait on the Lord, He is daily performing miracles and could still bring our baby to life. In God’s wisdom, He decided to take our baby Home and I miscarriage on Monday morning.
While crying out to the Lord for His peace and comfort, I found this on the Above Rubies website and the Lord gently spoke into my heart:
After a miscarriage, I felt God spoke these words to my heart,
"Most people view a miscarriage as a loss-- a victory for the enemy because he stole a life. That is not the perspective I want you to have.
I want you to see it as a privilege to have made and carried this baby for my eternal purposes which you know nothing about. I wanted a Fowler child but chose not to take one of yours that you already know so well. You will share eternity with this baby but I didn't need him/her in this world.
You gave me permission to give you whatever children I want for My glory and My purposes. You have understood all of your children to be gifts from Me - only lent to you for a time. Only I can decide how long or short to grace your earthly life with each child. Remember, My purposes and plans are always eternal. You are limited to an earthly perspective.
Do not be cast down, but rejoice, and take joy in the child I've shared with you. You may call him/her 'Angel'."
TONI FOWLER, USA
I will not blog for some time.