Health Talk Webinar

Since September last year my Husband, a Clinical Nutritionist and Health Shop Owner, have been presenting Health Talks once a month at Eirene Health Shop, our Health Shop, in Durbanville. Over the months many of our clients around South Africa, requested the talks online.

So, after a lot of ‘behind the scenes’ sweat, we are happy to announce that we will be hosting our first Webinar on Monday Evening, 13 February, at 7pm live from Eirene Health Shop.

The seminar will be on “How to Maintain your S3xual Health - Naturally”

Through this Webinar you will learn how to:

Improve Libido

Avoid PMS

Correct hormone related depression

Have a healthy Prostate

Prevent Breast Cancer

Eliminate Dryness and Pain

Balance Hormones

Eradicate Erectile Disfunction

Enjoy your intimate life to the full

We have created a Registration form via which you can register for the seminar and you can log in just before 7pm - Click here to register for the Webinar.

You will receive a Registration Confirmation by e-mail and the link to login 15minutes before 7pm to give you able time to log in.

Please take note: On the Registration form for the live Webinar you will also find a link to check your computer’s ability to view this Webinar. If you copy, paste the link it will check if you have all the plug-ins to run a Webinar.

We hope you can join us for this live talk.

Much love

Linnie

Born with a Purpose!

On the 17th of August 1994 a little boy, CJ Lues, was born. 

By the grace of God he was born naturally and not by caesarian. When thinking back, with the knowledge I have now, I can hardly believe that his birth didn’t end in a caesarian!  But it was meant to be. This tiny baby opening my womb for so many to come after him.

He was a strong little baby, he nursed like a pro and introduced me to the world of motherhood, in a delightful way. 

Then at 15 months the calling on his live began, but I didn’t know that then (my vocabulary didn’t include a Godly calling) and we only experienced the pain and hardship at the time.

He was due for his 15 months vaccination.  A few weeks before his vaccination we decided to move to Cape Town.  Christo was already in Cape Town to start our new business and CJ and I stayed to sell our house. I took into account how sick CJ became after vaccinations and the fact that I would be without any support in a new City, I decided to give him his vaccination at the familiar clinic in Bloemfontein. This meant that my mother and mother-in-law could help me take care of my sick baby the 48 hours after the shot.

But this time CJ didn’t recover after 48 hours, he only become weaker and weaker.  After a few days of trying to keep his fever down and feeding my restless, coughing baby, I visit the family pediatrician.  He immediately admit CJ to hospital.He feared that CJ may have meningitis and gave orders to get me out of the room and my baby ready for a lumper puncture.  I will never forget my anxiety, my mother-in-law holding me to prevent me from rushing into the examining room, grabbing my babyand run away!  His cries were more than I could handle as a young 25 year old mother, with my husband a 1000km away!  That night my mother-in-law and I slept next to his bed and the next day I took him home.  There was ‘nothing’ wrong with my baby. The pediatrician diagnosed him with “longing for his dad”. We immediately made arrangements for the two of us to move down to my husband,  leaving our house in the hands of the estate agent. God was so good, the weekend we left Bloemfontein our house sold.

In the Cape, our baby son didn’t recover as expected!  For months I visited the spacious  luxurious consultation rooms of one irritated, impatient pediatrician after another, complaining they could not examine a baby who started crying the minute he enter a doctors room. What would you expect from a little boy whose first encounter with a pediatrician was a lumber puncture without his mother, since she was forbidden to hold him.  I left every pediatric visit with a prescription for antibiotics and NO explanation of why my baby had  tonsillitis every two weeks and a chronic cough. 

Finally a pediatrician suggested allergy tests. This time it was me who needed to hold down my little boy on a hospital bed, while they pricked countless wholes in his back ‘testing‘ him for allergies.  I was to  stupid to know that you cannot do accurate allergy tests on a child younger than 5 years old! For days I had to wait for the results and when the pediatrician eventually called, he  informed me that the tests didn’t show anything. What he said next, literally crashed my spirit.  He said that he cannot do anything for my son, I need to find out by myself what was wrong!!

I looked at my 18month old son, who just finished another 3day course of antibiotics a week ago and realized I need Godly intervention or my son was going to die in front of my eyes! The rest of the day I prayed! The next day as I  entered the centre in which my husband had his men’s gift shop at that stage, when my attention was drawn to the health shop I passed every time I paid my husband a visit.  I just knew God sent me. Before I could stop myself, I walked into the health shop and asked for the name of a homeopath. Shocked with my own actions, I walked out of the health shop with the business card of a local homeopath.

At home, I walked straight to the telephone and fell in the chair next to it.  For what felt like hours I just stared at the business card. My husband and I grew up in very conservative religious homes and consulting a homeopath was totally foreign for me. But I was desperate. I just had to try the Homeopath as a last option.

The very friendly health shop assistant informed me that the homeopath  was very busy and I would most probably not be able to get an appointment in the next month. I could not wait that long, CJ’s cough was already getting worse.  So I prayed and asked God, since I was not very comfortable with the idea of a homeopath due to my’

ignorance, I would know He approved if I could get an appointment before the end of the week - it was Wednesday.  Then I made the call.  You can imagine the overwhelming joy when the receptionist inform me: “ They just got a cancellation for Friday...”

The first appointment was such an eye-opener.  My homeopath immediately won my confidence and over the next 6 months he changed our lives.  He diagnosed CJ with chronic whooping cough and started boosting his immune system and treating his condition. 

Over a period of 6 months he also gradually took us off yeast, sugar and diary products.  Still it took CJ 2 years to totally recover from his 15 month against whooping cough vaccination. 

As a bonus Christo got rid of his sinusitis and lost about 10 kg.  I had two miscarriages during this time, our homeopath treated me for candida and since 1997 I hadn’t had candida or a miscarriage!

In the meantime we got crucified by our conservative church and family for being involved in homeopathy and its evil roots.  Christo being an electronic engineer, understanding electronics and fault finding, studied homeopathy over a period of two years. During this time God amazingly guided us and even gave us a prophesy of teaching and healing His people.

When CJ turned 6years old, we closed the doors of our men’s gift shop and started our health shop.  Over the past ten years, thousands of people’s lives have been changed, improved and saved thanks to our experience with CJ.

  

Thanks to CJ not one of his siblings received any vaccinations.

Thanks to CJ we can teach parents about the health risks in giving vaccinations, such as autism. If we finished CJ’s vaccinations and gave him the 18month MMR shot, CJ would definitely have been autistic.

Thanks to CJ we’re not using any modern medicine with all its terrible side effects.

Thanks to CJ we totally changed our life style and daily give our family the priceless gift of health.

The little boy who has turned 16 a couple of days ago, were used by God with a purpose, when he was only a few months old.  

Today he is a young man, with a God given life stretching out before him.

He knows there is a calling on his life, he knows his purpose is to give glory to God in everything and he knows he will need to make some sacrifices to walk in his purpose, but he doesn’t hesitate one-second. This is why he was created by His Creator.

Today we are still periodically questioned for using homeopathic medicine, but over the years we got anchored in God and His guidance in our life.  I trust Him for wisdom and knowledge. I can still not understand that something with “evil roots” could save my babies life and have an abundant harvest!  In my Bible I don’t read anything about testing something by its roots, only by its fruit! 

On Tuesday it was evident again that the Hand of the Lord is on my son’s life.  A year ago he won the 27th round of Apologia Science Question.  He could choose his prize and received a rocket set, he needed to build the rockets himself before he could launch it. 

Over the past year we just couldn’t find a suitable, safe place to launch the rockets.  Two months ago he started horse riding lessons on a farm 15 km outside Durbanville.  The owner gave him permission to launch the rockets on his farm, which fulfilled all the safety criteria. 

It was so much fun.

Heidi-Mari and I also baked him a cake of his choice out of our Baking book - Strawberry Bavarian Cream Cake.  

We enjoyed every minute assembling this cake. 

For breakfast we surprised him with muesli and yoghurt (which we never have for breakfast - diary is a No-No in our home) and fresh homemade croissants!  

The evening Christo and I, took CJ and Josua (who is turning 10 next Tuesday) out for supper.  Heidi-Mari took excellent care of her three brothers and sister at home.The boys had pizza and lamb shank and strawberry milkshakes.  

After getting back home we watched a boy movie ‘Brave Heart’ (we need the boys to close their eyes for some scenes, but the courage and integrity of William Wallace is what we want our sons to have) and only got to bed 01h00. 

It was truly a memory making day - Thank you Lord!  

Thank you CJ for being such a blessing to us, may God Bless you and guide you in the calling on your life! Love you lots!

With love

Linnie

First Do No Harm

A few weeks ago I had to pay a visit to the dentist.  We thought I needed only a few basic repairs.  I had tooth ache on the one side of my mouth, which most probably only needed a replacement of an old filling. I needed the amalgam to be replaced with a composite filling last year, but we postponed it, since I was pregnant with Michael and we didn’t want to take chances with heavy metal poisoning from removing of the mercury filling. 

Unfortunately the visit didn’t turn out to be a few simple repairs.  After about 20 X-rays, trying to locate the cause of the pain, it turned out that I needed a root canal in the one tooth, which would clear some of the pain. After evaluating different options, it also included the extraction of my one and only wisdom tooth!  I don’t have much knowledge about dental procedures, but I realized that I’m in for some pain! 

The local anesthetic was applied and 10 minutes later the right side of my mouth was numb. During the next 2hours my dentist had to increase the anesthetics, my throat was totally numb and I could only pray that I will not die in the dentist chair, due to inability to breathe!  

I was so relieved when he announced that he was finished and I could rinse my mouth and I was still alive! Little did I realize that the worse was still to come!  My friendly dentist, very concerned, asked me if we had any pain tablets at home and then wrote me a prescription for one.  We don’t have any chemical pain tablets at home, only natural remedies like Injura and Traumeel S drops and ointment (which works wonders for painful gums) and White Willow tablets (for any kind of pain).  I couldn’t see myself make use of the prescription, but didn’t want to argue with a numb mouth.

Our dentist is at the opposite of the mountain, in Camps bay, and after the hour long drive home, I was exhausted. The feeling was returning to my mouth, and I could feel a serious pain making its way into my skull!  I decided to go for a nap with little Michael, hoping to wake up after an hour, feeling much better and ready to start preparing dinner.  Wishful thinking!  An hour later I woke up with a pain I’ve never experienced before!  I could hardly breathe or talk due to the pain in my mouth, which made its way up into my skull. I tried to lay still, cover my mouth and be a big girl, but it was impossible.  

Blinded with pain, I got up, carefully, not to wake little Michael, who was fast asleep next to me and got to another room.  I needed help and I needed pain tablets, something I haven’t used in the last 15years!  I Skyped Christo.  I was covering my mouth and could only nod my head, not able to say a word. He promised me he would get the pain tablets and bring them as soon as possible.

It was now 15h20 and I, after trying a hot water bottle and ice cubes, decided the ice cubes maybe bring some relief, but not nearly enough for this unbearable pain!  Hour after hour I was waiting for Christo.  Convincing myself he is on his way with the pain tablets and I most probably only needed to wait another 10 minutes.  By 17h30 I was discouraged and sorry for myself.  How busy could my husband be to not hasten home to his wife in pain?

By 18h00 he rushed into the house.  I could not hold back anymore, and tears was running down my face.  I’ve never experienced such intense pain in my life!  Christo started to explain how he was trying to get pain tablets which was safe for nursing mothers, but I didn’t mind if it was the tablets on the description or not, I only want the tablets NOW!  It was only then that he, with much compassion told me, actually there isn’t any safe tablets  for me to use!  What! Was I supposed to just bear this pain!?  Only then I saw him open a box and bring out a machine, about the size of an A4 book.

He pushed some buttons and put a probe on my collar bone, after two minutes he asked me where the pain was and started moving the probe over my jaw.  

All the time he was explaining to me how he, a friend - who was dependent of pain tablets and morphine for 8 years before he got healed from lupus, another friend - a Homeopath and the local pharmacist in Durbanville, researched the whole afternoon to find a pain tablet suitable for a nursing mother. All the pain tablets contained a mix of seriously toxic and potentially harmful chemicals and could cause serious kidney damage (amongst others) to little Michael.  The best they could find was (Schedule 5) tablets which would cause ‘hallucinations’ and they suggested I use it only if I could not sleep during the night!  But our Homeopath friend told Christo about this little machine he had, for the treatment of pain.  He was on his way home and would drop it off at the Health shop.

Christo was sceptic about the machine.  Apparently it sends out different colours of light, infrared ‘laser’ and magnetism. He treated me with 4 different frequencies over a period of 20 minutes and asked me how I felt.  To his great disappointment I didn’t feel any different.  I just remember telling myself I need to get a grip on myself, there is nothing we can do about this pain and I’m not planning to drink tablets that will cause me to hallucinate - I have a baby to take care of during the night!  Graciously, while thinking all this, I fell asleep.  

Half an hour later I woke up and realized the pain was gone!  Seriously, I had NO pain at all!  My family was busy having dinner (which CJ and Heidi-Mari prepared) and the only pain I was aware of, was in my tummy, because I last had breakfast and was very hungry! Christo cut the chicken and quince  in tiny pieces and together with rice and gravy, I ate my whole plate of food!

After dinner, Christo gave me another treatment with the RIKTA machine and by 20h30 I was helping Heidi-Mari making a card for her card making challenge. I didn’t have one moment of pain since I fell asleep before dinner!

As I was pondering the care of my husband, friends and pharmacist, I couldn’t but help to wonder what went wrong that we believe only chemical medicine can bring relief to pain and heal.  Hypocrites said: “First do no harm.”  The pain medicine that was prescribed to me would cause beyond others, organ damage to my baby and hallucinations. Do you have any un-natural medicine in your house, that has NO side-effects? What went wrong that doctors don’t even care anymore that the medicine they prescribe can cause serious side-effects? What went wrong that we, the public, so trust the medical professionals that we blindly use the stuff they prescribe without even investigating the side effects? Where is, “First do no harm?”

I’m just thinking about anti-depression- and hormonal medicine, that almost every woman, who walks into Christo’s health shop, takes!  In 90% of cases it is only a lack of Omega 3 in women’s bodies, that causes the imbalance in their hormones.  The side-effects of anti-depressants and hormone replacement is more than what you can ever risk your life on, but still we take them and trust our ‘caring doctor’ BLINDLY! 

I don’t even want to talk about the VERY poisonous chemotherapy stuff (prepared by “scientists” in white coats, wearing gas masks and cloves) they inject into cancer patients to ‘heal’ them. Don’t think I don’t know what I’m talking about! For weeks I sat next to my Lung-cancer-diagnosed-dad while they injected these poisonous ‘medicine’ into his veins! The medical personnel wore cloves the whole time while they were preparing the intravenous drips. Chemotherapy has a less than 2% efficacy over a period of 10 years.  Exactly 4 years after my dad was diagnosed with cancer I had to tell his grandson, he doesn’t have a grandpa anymore.  Since my dad had cancer, we learned mind blowing facts about cancer and alternative methods of treatment (with 80% healing success)! But, that’s “un-$cientific - read more about this in Christo’s latests blog posting - Homeopathy and the Christian.

Over the years there were amazing discoveries in the medical field on treatment of the human body, and as in my case, relieving pain, without harmful side-effects.  For almost every chronic medical condition there is a natural alternative, but most of the time, there is no or very little money involved.  For example, the cure for 90% of sinus related problems, is simply eliminating dairy and wheat from your diet.  This kind of treatment don’t bring in any money for pharmaceutical companies, and money is what the medical world is all about! (My Dad’s cancer treatment cost R 1 000 000 eight years ago!)

“First do no harm”.  Makes you think, doesn’t it?  Since my root canal, Christo got hold of the company who imports this little machine from Russia and we plan to get one for our family in the relieve of pains and injuries, and to help other people with it.

I want to leave you with a challenge: Go search for the pamphlet inserts of all the un-natural , chemical medicine in your house and count the cost of using the stuff. Then try to find a natural alternative that, ‘first does no harm’!

Why a Water Birth and Assembling the Birth Pool.

The births of my first two children were traumatic experiences!  I still have to write their birth stories, but for now you can believe me, I never ever want to experience it again.  Both were in hospital, an over-exposed, public place, with many distractions and stresses, due to electronic fetal monitoring devices, results in less effective labour. Now in retrospect,  it isn’t difficult to understand why I needed the assistance of oxytocin drugs to stimulate (in CJ’s case) and induce me (in Heidi-Mari’s case) in labour, and an epidural to block the pain and an instrument assisted birth (CJ).  Praise the Lord that in my foolishness He protected me with CJ and Heidi-Mari from caesarean sections!

Giving birth is a very basic involuntary primitive instinct, controlled by the hypothalamus (the most primitive part of the brain) rather than controlled by the mind.  A successful, natural birth is all about the highly sensitive balance of hormones and it was only after I’ve understood this sensitive balance between birth hormones, that I could help my body functioning optimally to bring on labour and have a ‘relaxed‘ birth. 

God designed our bodies so amazingly!  

“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

Marvelous are Your works,

And that my soul knows very well.”

Ps 139:14

If we would only listen to our bodies and allow our bodies to function the natural way, God’s way.  One of the biggest drawbacks of unnatural (evolution based) medicine, specifically in labour, is that it works against the natural workings of the body. This is the reason it’s called allo-pathic medicine - meaning against the natural body.

This is also part of the reason why I, ever since those first births, now choose water birth.

The Birth hormones are Prolactin - the ‘mothering hormone’; Endorphins - natural morphine-like chemicals that bring pain relief in labour; as well as Oxytocin - the main birth hormone.

It is very interesting to know it is the baby that decides when it is time for his/her birth! As I’m currently getting closer to my due date, my body is automatically increasing the secretion of oxytocin, the main birth hormone, preparing my uterus for contractions (I’ve already experienced this numerous times over the past few weeks!) by triggering the release of estrogen, while prostaglandin softens and ripens the cervix. 

But it is ONLY when the baby’s lungs are fully matured and ready to breathe, that they produce a hormone that reaches the mother’s bloodstream and sends a message to her brain that it’s time for labour to start.   This message has the physical result of more oxytocin, released in pulses into the mother’s bloodstream - each pulse resulting in a contraction. 

Emotionally, the effect of high levels of oxytocin during labour, is to make the mother draw deeply into herself, as she concentrates her energies on the overwhelming sensations she is experiencing.  During this stage it is extremely important to protect the laboring woman from disturbances such as bright lights, talking and asking questions or giving her a feeling of being ‘observed’.  When the mother is disturbed, feels anxious or becomes afraid, her body is likely to produce adrenaline, the ‘fight of flight hormone’.  During labour adrenaline counteracts the release of oxytocin and can therefore slow or even inhibit labour.  We should aim to keep the level of adrenaline as low as possible during labour, by giving the mother a protective, intimate place of birth.  Woman in labour have a need to withdraw and cut themselves off from the world of ordinary events, and one can tell that a labour is going well when this is observed. 

In a modern hospital setting and sometimes even at a home birth, adrenaline is likely to be released in response to too much noise and activity, emotional stress, unsympathetic surroundings and in more extreme cases fear and distress.  In this situation, the halting or slowing of contractions may lead to the need for a arsenal of medical interventions to deliver the baby.  

Towards the end of labour, there is a sudden shift in the mother’s hormonal balance as the birth approaches.  A kind of ‘hormonal storm’!  I’ve experienced it every time just after full dilation of the cervix. It may also happen just before or at the time of full dilation.  The high oxytocin levels produce long, intense contractions with only brief intervals between them.  At this point a high level or rush of adrenaline is released, which now, paradoxically, has the dramatic effect of stimulating contractions instead of slowing them down, as would have happened earlier.  As a result of this, you might notice a new restlessness in the mother in contrast to the relative passivity of late labour. In my case I experienced my body going in a spasm.  Christo then normally supports me from outside the pool, allowing me to float in the water. The rush of adrenaline, combined with the mechanical pressure from the baby’s descending head on the pudendal nerves deep inside the pelvis, has the effect of stimulating the rapid birth of the baby.  

But a rapid birth, due to adrenaline rush, doesn’t occur in all labours.  In particular, when there is too much well-meaning ‘support’ for the mother, the necessary primal anxiety is suppressed.  In this case the mother need to consciously make the efforts to ‘push’ the baby down the birth canal.  Christo and my midwife help to make the birth as easy as possible for me and baby by minimizing disturbances to help along a spontaneous birth.

And this is the main reason why I prefer a home birth.  I need to feel secure during labour, spontaneous and uninhibited, dominated by my involuntary primitive instincts, rather than controlled by my mind, afraid of what people might think.

Since I’m a very private person, the birth pool gives me a sense of privacy.  I feel enclosed in my private space, protected by the gentle barrier of the water and secure from unwanted contact and more in control of my body.

The warm water helps me cope better with the pain during labour.  The water has a relaxing effect on my heavily pregnant body.  The buoyancy of the water supports my weight, enabling my body to relax.  The warmth of the water also has a relaxing effect on the muscle fibers, helping to dispel tension throughout my body.

I also experience a huge sense of relief when I enter the birthing pool.   The birthing pool is designed to hold sufficient water to provide buoyancy to support me comfortably and effortlessly in whatever position I choose, providing a feeling of weightlessness.  Since I’m free from the effort of supporting my body’s weight, the buoyancy also helps me to conserve energy so that I’m less likely to become exhausted.  The support of the water allows total relaxation between contractions, which are blissful and restorative.

While in labour I want to move my body spontaneously into the most comfortable and beneficial position at any given time.  In water, mobility is much easier to achieve and involves much less effort.  I am free to find the positions that alleviate pain, whether lying, floating or kneeling leaning forwards.

These are only some of the many reasons why I choose a water birth.

This weekend Christo and the boys assembled the birth pool. I periodically have heavy contractions, so Christo thought it safe to assemble the pool just incase the contractions become the ‘real thing’ and he doesn’t want to be caught off guard and cause extra stress on me.

CJ and Josua helped Christo fit the 4 fibre glass panels together to form the structure of the birth pool.

The pool doesn’t have a glass fibre bottom, only a piece of foam rubber inside.

They also checked the warm water urn and it’s placement.  Boiling water from the urn is necessary to regulate the pool temperature, after it had been filled with warm water out of the geyser. This size pool needs two fillings of a normal household geyser. 

I normally get into the pool when dilated 6-7 cm and then it takes about 2 hours before I’m fully dilated and ready to give birth.  The temperature of the pool needs to be exactly the same as body temperature for baby to be born safely.  Thus the need for boiling water to heat up the pool, incase the temperature had dropped under 37 degrees C, during the second stage of labour.

Oops!  They forgot to put down the plastic, to protect the carpet from spilled water, underneath the pool.

Building me a comfortable ‘chair’ inside the pool.  I’m a very strong believer in immediately after giving birth, finding a comfortable position in the pool to put my baby on my breast.  Baby’s first contact with the breast or first sucking, minutes after birth, stimulates more oxytocin secretion, as do all the interactions that happen between me and my baby at this time - me falling deeply in love with my baby!  This results in massive contractions that ensure the delivery of the placenta, the retraction of the uterus and the sealing of the blood vessels at the placental site.  Thus being in a comfortable position, having my baby at my breast, adoring his/her small fingers and toes, is part of the natural way to prevent hemorrhage and ensure the safety of my baby and myself.  We never allow the injection of vitamin K to prevent hemorrhage.  God put everything in place for a healthy body to ensure it’s safety and I don’t want to interfere unless otherwise advised by Christo or my midwife. 

‘Testing... testing...’  Don’t let the smile mislead you.  This is normally a very traumatic moment for me - getting into the pool to test the comfortability of my ‘chair’.  This is the moment when I’m confronted with the reality. There is now NO turning back. In here, I will go through the biggest trauma, as well as the biggest joy, of my life - giving birth and holding the baby I’ve carried for nine months under my heart!

Christo and the boys put the plastic cover inside the pool structure.  Only now the pool is ready to be filled with water.

Inside the pool, you will see another piece of blue plastic. This is special bubble plastic that will keep the temperature of the water, while I’m not ready to get into the pool yet.  If you get into the birth pool to soon, in may case before 6cm dilated, the soothing effect of the warm water can cause contractions to stop. 

The birth pool ready to be used.  The pool will be filled with the hose from our bathroom, as soon as I’m sure I’m in real labour. 

One of the biggest benefits of a water birth is the gentle welcome effect on my baby.  A water birth results in a gentle and sensitive entry into the world and thus a calmer, less stressed, more settled and content baby.  

I have no words to describe what it is like when my baby is born from the water of the womb through warm water into the world, and then gently lifted up and put into my arms. Every time I brought my newborn to my heart, tears of joy ran down my face.  All this, in a matter of a few seconds, seems to happen in slow motion.  These were the most moving moments in my life and I’m in so much anticipation to experience it again.

With every pregnancy I experienced roller coaster emotions during the last two weeks - emotions of fear and impatience.  Starting this pregnancy I promised myself to be patient and not to allow these emotions to spoil the last few days of my pregnancy.  But now I’ve realized it must be hormonal, I just can’t help it.  I’m ready to give birth, I want to hold my baby and it has nothing to do with impatience!